The Black Box

Every time I think about writing, I'm doing something else. Anything else. And by the time I get myself in front of a computer, those inspiring words and thoughts seem to go hiding. But I'm so due for a catch up that I want to try anyways because there's so much general stuff to catch up that I can't even start in on my always-running-draft of ideas of past stuff that I still haven't caught up on.

So, the past 2 weeks I've been officially unemployed. However, as my mom pointed out, two of the definitions of employed are:

To engage the attention or activity of; occupy:
To devote (time, for example) to an activity or purpose:

Judging by my photos from the last two weeks, I've been devoting time to Porter and engaging in the activity of demolition. So I guess I'm not technically unemployed.

The living room (lounge) renovation

I saw an article come up in my Twitter feed that is so appropriate for me at this time - it's all about "the black box" and how what happens before it is known and what happens after it is known but what's gone on in-between isn't as clear or easy to understand. It comes down to trust and trusting that things will work out and that you know what you need. So, for now I'm definitely in the in-between - I know I quit my job and we'll eventually find out what happens next but for now, I'm trying to trust in the fact that I don't need to worry, that I will know soon and that I can accept that transitional periods happen for a reason.

I'm going back and forth between trying to force some clarity into my brain and just giving it time - it's been under so much stress and frustration for months that I think it really needs a break but my proclivity towards productivity and action is super conflicted with this concept of a "break" which is maybe part of what this transition is trying to teach me. We all need breaks and we don't seem to give them to ourselves often enough.

So, hopefully this break will put my in a place to write more often because I do so enjoy it! In the meantime, go the All Blacks in the world cup!! Check out the supporter song/charity fundraising song that all of NZ will surely be singing...